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OctoberFly

SPM 2008 is not officially over yet. Well, good luck for all the accounts' student. Especially to Eunice, Wee kor, Wai Yi, Yaozz and other buddies :D Sorry if your name is not mentioned here [I have problem identifying who's taking accounts]

Well, mayb for most people; its like heaven to finish their SPM but not to me. It feels like my life is over. It's like I don't know what's gonna happen next! Even when I finish my PMR, I know that I'm going to be a Form 4 senior and yes I still have SPM ahead of me. But now? No! It's totally different. My life feels so empty now. It's like I can't study! [Yes, I'm used to reading books now after trying hard to adapt myself into studying during SPM]. What I'm gonna do, where I'll gonna be; it's all just some mystery I have to find out myself. Geez, this sucks really.

I bought an inline skate [a cheapscake one] finally yesterday. So I tried to skate [unfortunately] with my skirt on. Yes I've forgotten to change and stuff. Geez! I fell. Haha, lame person.

I've been playing highstreet 5 now. Hey, it's really nice; my character is exactly pretty [sadly unlike me]. So try it out!

www.highstreet5.com.my

OctoberFly

Maybe to everyone, death is just another end for our lives. And to certain people, death is just a beginning. To me, death was almost the end and I almost believe it.

After we are officially dead, people don't talk about you anymore. They try to avoid your name in conversations and even in their life. This is just what it appears to be; I mean, this is just what you see, but in life, there are much more that can't be seen. People remembers you. They think about  you, maybe not in the outside but in the inside.

Sometimes when you try to look back at their pictures, you'll felt like; these aren't people I know. Yes, maybe after a long time their image in your head doesn't not looked like the one in the glossy printed paper. Sad or frustrated, you have to face it. Their faces don't belong in your head anymore. Only their heart, their actions are left in you head.

There are even times when you realize you have completely forgotten them. Their faces, their voices and their eyes. It's okay, believe me. They left their name in your heart, they left their memories with you. Although the times you enjoyed with them seemed to be a little like a dream but you know it's real. Yes, it's real.

This is not the end. They are in your heart, they are growing silently in your heart. Because every breath you take and every step you make brings you closer to them, in a good way of course.  Just remember that you have loved them and you still do love them no matter how far they are and no matter how they looked like in your head.

When you felt like you don't know what you're living for, stand up and search for it. Do not whine in the corner. We are born for one reason and I was born to love.

"The dead will never be dead when there is someone loving them. They survived; in the heart of their belover."

In the past, you've had to contact me to set your own custom domain. This is no longer the case - I've added a new page in the control panel (Settings > Set Custom Domain) which lets you set your own domain name. I've updated the documentation page with instructions on how to set-up your Tabulas to use a domain name.

OctoberFly

Geez, I don't know 'bout this. I felt like I've change. Maybe a little. Maybe much more like a girl and maybe much more like an elder sister.

So go guys! Put more effort in your Spm examination! I bet you guys can do well and of course; your efforts will all paid off next year :D when you take your results of course. Hehe.

So what am I doing here? Listening to songs. Hey; it's some kinda relaxation! You can't just study 24/7 'ya know?

OctoberFly

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

[chorus]
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

[chorus]
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

[chorus]
'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

[repeat]

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...